this one is for Candy

Today has just been one of those days where absolutely nothing has worked out as planned. I would go into details if they weren't completely boring and  didn't frustrate me to the core. I'm just glad it's over... or almost over. 

The new house isn't small but it's small enough for me to hear my mom's annoyed tone of voice from where she stands in the kitchen to my new room. I don't like it in here yet- it looks like an Easter egg. And I litterally mean Easter egg. Not the color, but the actual design- the pink and green mesh and mix to form a pattern that makes me feel like there should be a solid chocolate bunny at the foot of my bed when I wake up each morning. Anyways, back to my mom's phone conversation. If you're thinking of getting Comcast phone service... don't.

Last night, with some help from Beth, we managed to finish unpacking the boxes in the kitchen. We still have so much to do. I guess after dinner I'll continue my job in the den, stacking books on the shelves. At this point, I'm not too concerned about unpacking the boxes in my room. I don't really live here anymore and I'm not too worried about my stuff being in boxes. As long as my shoes and clothes are unpacked I can deal with boxes. If I can deal with Easter egg paint, I can deal with brown boxes. By the way, we are having my room painted- I just don't know when. 

I like having responsibility. I've never had a job so when I am asked to take care of something for my parents, I want to do as good a job as I can to show them that I am not completely worthless. I get so frustrated with people who have no responsability what so ever. (No names here- just frustration) No I can't just leave the dog and Peachtree Industrial wouldn't really have been faster. Please just go with out me this once. Note: People with no responsability should not be allowed to be frustrated with my frustration! 

I'll have to be home all day again tomorrow, waiting for various fucktards to come and play refrigerator repairman and cable guy. I'm hoping soon I'll be able to make it out of the house for a nice day of... whatever! Anything has got to be better than this. Hopefully, Jess and I will have dinner tomorrow night so that will give me something to look forward too. Plus the Hills which I have scheduled into my Palm Pilot each week so I won't forget it... sad really. 

We're going to get the new puppy on Saturday. I saw him today when I went to pick up Happy. He's precious. I'm hoping he'll be my little snuggle bunny seeing as my usual snuggler is MIA. Speaking of which, we're trying to work out a good date for me to go visit. He was just here for the long Memorial weekend and it was wonderful. But I miss him already- no surprise there. 

In regard to your current situation I suggest this. 
1. One pair of oversized sweatpants (grey is reccomended but not necessary)
2.  One oversized T-shirt or sweatshirt (depending on the temperature of the room)
3.  One spoon, partnered with a large tub of your favorite ice cream. If you do not have your favorite- go and get it. This is serious. Not a time to settle for less than the best since that is what we do every other day of our lives... isn't it?
4. A good movie: a comedy or even a sappy chick flick. (tears are again recommended but not necessary)

Pick a night to spend on the couch in front of the TV alone. This is your one night to let it all out: the sadness, the jealousy, the hatefulness (which of course you would never admit to being present but we all know is there). Cry, eat ice cream and vent. Once the movie is over, peel yourself off the the couch and climb into bed. Don't worry about the mess- you'll get it tomorrow. When you wake up in the morning, clean up the couch- fold the blankets and throw away the empty carton of ice cream. Then get along with your day. Move on: he obviously has. Why can't you? You're better, you're hotter, you're funnier and a whole lot more capable of finding something real than he will ever be. So get on it! Enjoy but remember, you only get  one night.

I hope this will help. It does for me now that I have matured a little bit. Everything is going to be alright- just give it a little push!